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So, I'm just sitting here at home, feeling kind of depressed at the moment. My story is progressing (for those who don't know, I've been writing a book since 9th grade) at a good pace. I think I understand my character a little better. I've been thinking about starting another story, I'm still toying around with the idea. It's kind of cool having my computer in my room b/c I can work on my story at night when I can't sleep. :) Yeah, so I'm pretty much avoiding all of my friends at the moment (except for the crazy psychos that reside at Jess's). I feel conflicted, and I don't really want to call any of them. I just don't want to be the permanent dumping ground for their problems anymore. I know they need to talk to someone, and I want to be there for them but I am feeling kind of confused at the moment too.

The thing is that I don't feel I can tell them about my problems, which isn't really their problem. I resent them for not knowing me better, but I won't take any steps towards letting them know me better. :) I'm so screwed. Well, I'll eventually call Minh, Elaine, Beth, Amanda, and Jordan... Eventually................................

So moving on...I'm feeling very old tonight. And very sad. I'll go before I depress myself further.