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Jun. 7th, 2004
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Jun. 7th, 2004 02:47 pmYou are Melancholy - The ancient Greeks believed this was caused by having too much black bile. Strengths: You are serious, analytical, idealistic and conscientious.
Weaknesses: You can be moody, introspective, and hard to please.
At your best: You are a creative planner.
At your worst: You can be a gloomy nit-picker.
You measure your own value by: Activity
For personal growth, you should focus on: Decision making
For others to relate well to you, they should be: Accurate
Others should support your: Principles
If someone wants you to make a decision, they should give: Facts
Weaknesses: You can be moody, introspective, and hard to please.
At your best: You are a creative planner.
At your worst: You can be a gloomy nit-picker.
You measure your own value by: Activity
For personal growth, you should focus on: Decision making
For others to relate well to you, they should be: Accurate
Others should support your: Principles
If someone wants you to make a decision, they should give: Facts
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Jun. 7th, 2004 02:48 pmToday is my day off, yeah! I am not doing much of anything except playing on the computer. Work called to ask me to come in but I decided not to go b/c it's my day off and I haven't gotten much sleep lately...So I didn't respond to the message, and I have spent the last few hours feeling intermittently guilty.
Right now I'm kind of angry with Dad, not spending last night with Jess and everbody kind of sucked but I was tired so that wasn't so bad. But he's trying to control me too much. I know I haven't been home at nights lately but I am 17 and I just want to have fun and not worry about things for awhile. These three months are my last little break before I'm back to school for four more years. Sigh. He's trying to control me and I think he is enjoying it a little. I know he's waiting for me to get pissed off at him so he can forbid me from spending any time with my friends.
His desire to keep me at home is so he can see me, but part of that desire is selfishness. I want to see him too, but I also don't want to be home all the time. I spent a lot of time in high school at home doing homework, being behaved and good. Now I want to spend a little time doing things I want to do and having fun.
He goes through phases his free phases where he doesn't worry about me as much and he lets me have more freedom, and his constrained phases where he doesn't want me to do much of anything but sit at home. The thing I've noticed is that during his free phases he is ususally doing something. He is focusing on himself, so he devotes less time to worrying about me. Thus when he goes into his constrained phases he is being mostly selfish.
I'm just entirely pissed off at his attitude. He smiled at me and laughed when I said I was going to bed b/c I didn't have anything else to do, then he said good it's 11. Yes, father I have been staying out late-get over it! I know about your past and you weren't always a good little boy either. Hell, I haven't even done anything bad-yet.
He wants me to stay at home so he can see me, and spend time with me but the more he behaves like a dip shit the more I don't want to be around him. Elaine says my father sounds kind of immature sometimes which is true.
When you grow older you realize your parents are not perfect that they are people too. I realized this fact a long time ago. But I think you also have to realize that your parents are people, and then extend them the same courtesy you extend anyone else, and try not to judge them. So I really try not to expect my father to be perfect, but sometimes I wish he would treat me as an individual and not a child. Most of the time he sees me as a person, but he still judges me as his daughter.
I am independent. Jess and I had to learn how to take care of ourselves when our parents were distracted by their own differences. We learned how to be individuals partly b/c of their teaching, and partly out of necessity. I have been able to take care of myself for a long time now, so I resent it when he turns from regarding me as an individual, to regarding me as his naive daughter.
I'm just frustrated, and I fear that this spat will not be the end of the arguments between my father and me.
Right now I'm kind of angry with Dad, not spending last night with Jess and everbody kind of sucked but I was tired so that wasn't so bad. But he's trying to control me too much. I know I haven't been home at nights lately but I am 17 and I just want to have fun and not worry about things for awhile. These three months are my last little break before I'm back to school for four more years. Sigh. He's trying to control me and I think he is enjoying it a little. I know he's waiting for me to get pissed off at him so he can forbid me from spending any time with my friends.
His desire to keep me at home is so he can see me, but part of that desire is selfishness. I want to see him too, but I also don't want to be home all the time. I spent a lot of time in high school at home doing homework, being behaved and good. Now I want to spend a little time doing things I want to do and having fun.
He goes through phases his free phases where he doesn't worry about me as much and he lets me have more freedom, and his constrained phases where he doesn't want me to do much of anything but sit at home. The thing I've noticed is that during his free phases he is ususally doing something. He is focusing on himself, so he devotes less time to worrying about me. Thus when he goes into his constrained phases he is being mostly selfish.
I'm just entirely pissed off at his attitude. He smiled at me and laughed when I said I was going to bed b/c I didn't have anything else to do, then he said good it's 11. Yes, father I have been staying out late-get over it! I know about your past and you weren't always a good little boy either. Hell, I haven't even done anything bad-yet.
He wants me to stay at home so he can see me, and spend time with me but the more he behaves like a dip shit the more I don't want to be around him. Elaine says my father sounds kind of immature sometimes which is true.
When you grow older you realize your parents are not perfect that they are people too. I realized this fact a long time ago. But I think you also have to realize that your parents are people, and then extend them the same courtesy you extend anyone else, and try not to judge them. So I really try not to expect my father to be perfect, but sometimes I wish he would treat me as an individual and not a child. Most of the time he sees me as a person, but he still judges me as his daughter.
I am independent. Jess and I had to learn how to take care of ourselves when our parents were distracted by their own differences. We learned how to be individuals partly b/c of their teaching, and partly out of necessity. I have been able to take care of myself for a long time now, so I resent it when he turns from regarding me as an individual, to regarding me as his naive daughter.
I'm just frustrated, and I fear that this spat will not be the end of the arguments between my father and me.
