Jan. 30th, 2013 03:27 pm
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I'm tired and wondering if it is going to rain... we have all sorts of flood warnings for the city and wind alerts etc. I would like a nice big storm. I'm enjoying the balmy weather but it is super weird to have balmy weather in the 70's in January!

I didn't sleep well at all last night, or the last few nights, or weeks. lol. I'm always tired and starting to get frustrated again with my bladder. I don't do anything to relieve stress but I expect it to go away. : /

It's really hard to get back into having a regular yoga practice though. I start to get excited about doing some of the things that used to make me feel better and then I just fizzle and don't do them. Bah humbug.

Things I/We need to do before J leaves for Newark on Friday:

- Buy toilet paper
- Go to the pharmacy
- Go to the post office

I think we should try to go to the post office tonight so J can get that whole situation taken care of.

The cat is in her cat bed staring out the window, has been all day. I think she knows there is a big storm coming. She is really sleepy and she is always super sleepy when it is going to rain.

I'm looking forward to the drop in temperature on Friday and possible snowfall.

I need a nap.
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My basement neighbors are terrible. Terrible!

They use fuck in practically every sentence they speak. They are driving me batty!

Two people live together in a space the size of a postage stamp (I don't know why my landlord rents the space at all), a father and a son. They don't act like a father and a son though, they act like crazy people.

One day they had an argument that went on and on in which they referred to each other as dickheads. If I ever spoke to my father like that I wouldn't have a father. Uck. The negativity that seeps out of the basement is toxic. When they are home my shoulders climb to my ears, and I get headaches.

Perhaps black salt *is* the answer.
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I'm looking forward to the weekend, we have some fun things planned and the all important laundry monster. I'm particularly looking forward to visiting a new age shop. So many are terrible, hopefully we will find one as nice as the one in Frederick (which is too far away to go to tomorrow).

I'm in a lot of pain today, I'm having a very bad flare. I have had my body bean heated up almost all day and that has helped.

I'm getting caught up on some old episodes of "Go On" as well as "The Mentalist". I made a list of all the episodes our evil Comcast DVR has banished to the ether. I'm planning on going to bed early though, I'm pretty tired.
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I hate it when people refer to me as sweetie, it comes off as so condescending. I play an online game and made a mistake, I would have figured it out and adjusted accordingly. Instead someone, trying to be helpful, posts and says "Sweetie you have to do this other thing" and it just makes me want to kick her in the face. It comes off as patronizing to me, while I'm sure she is expecting a big thank you and lots of gushing.

Why are people so afraid to let other people make their own mistakes?

I'm tired and I don't feel super hot. I made a mistake but it's not the end of the world, it's an online Facebook game. lol. It would have been okay. I kind of want to turn off messages sometimes in the game. If I make a mistake, let me make it. You know?

I want to post: I appreciate everyone who is willing to help, but let me make my own mistakes please. Also, I'm not your sweetie.

Lol, that's a little bitchy. I would post it on my own game wall and chances are she would never see it, but it would make me feel better. ;p I'm not going to though, just going to rant here and let it go.

On the plus side, as long as I get a cord I can make a piece of technology I own work. So that's cool.


Jan. 9th, 2013 04:03 pm
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Things I need to do:

* organize the books in the living room
* sweep the floor before game night tonight
* start on footnotes for the paper
* choose a footnote format
* return J's overdue book to the library (when she finds it, bah)
* hang up the clothes and do laundry
* find someplace to put the solstice candles
* pick up library hold request
* make tea for game night
* Clean J's room
* make a schedule
* make a decision about more hours at work

* Edited to say what I got done. 
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I'm barreling through Mansfield Park...not. lol. I am in the third part of the book now. I find it interesting that Austen originally wrote and published "Mansfield Park" in three parts. After I finished the second part I concluded that I would have been on the edge of my seat, waiting to see if Sir Bertram would actually listen to Fannie or if he would insist she marry Edmund...

Though I am not straightforwardly enjoying "Mansfield Park" I am enjoying parts of it, and if nothing else it completely teleports me away in time and space.

Some links I've happened across and you might take a peek at: 


- I find the images interesting

- I find this article intriguing in an odd way...very weird

- The images are beautiful, everybody looks so happy... I find the underwater wedding especially interesting (it reminds me of the kiss from "Whip It" )

- apparently I'm on a bit of a visual kick lately, images just jump start the writing part of my brain and tell me 'there's a story here...write it'

- A girl and her burning desire for her own farm...I'm not normally a big farmer *snort* but I find this blog interesting if nothing else, the picture of her goat at the door makes me laugh, and I've been on the edge of my seat waiting to see if she was going to get the loan approved

I hope you have a guilt free wonderful Sunday night, and a beautiful Monday...go forth and teleport!


Feb. 26th, 2010 06:37 pm
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I finished watching the first and only season of "Freaks and Geeks" the other day, which I really, really liked. I had watched about half of the episodes before, but never in order and never with the original music, which does matter. Speaking of the original music, I'm listening to Grateful Dead's "American Beauty" album which was featured prominently in the last episode and which I have never really listened to before. I am enjoying it quite a bit.

I'm currently reading "At Grave's End" the third book in Jeaniene Frost's Night Huntress series. I plowed through the first two over Christmas break (they're like a yummy treat, lol, they remind me of the first few Anita Blake books before the orgies started). It's taken me a while to read this one, it's good but I've been dragging my feet a bit, I think because I'm kind of tired of urban fantasy, but I resolved that I'll finish these two books before I return them. Sometimes you have to make yourself enjoy something you know you'll like. :)

I'm reading Mansfield Park too in my ongoing quest to reread/read all of Austen. Mansfield Park is the last book on my list, and then I'll be done. If you haven't read The Watson's, Lady Susan or Sandition (three works which are usually packaged together) I highly recommend them. Also, for the first time I'm going to read a continuation story about Mary Bennett something which I normally flee from, but it looked good so I picked it up. Exciting times.

I've been playing on my ds a lot, Professor Layton infuriates me, and Kingdom Hearts is okay...I think I need something more rpgy, I believe the ds game was supposed to mostly be a filter between Kingdom Hearts 1 and 2 to tell Roxas's story but it's driving me crazy waiting for the action to start. :p
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I just took ten plus boxes and bags of books, old clothes and various flotsam to the Salvation Army. Thank goodness for Dad's rolling cart or otherwise my back would hurt more than it already does. I also loaded up my car and sneaked up to Stanbery and threw away two boxes and five more bags of trash. The good news is the upstairs kitchen/storage room and the library look a whole hell of a lot better. The bad news is that I am going to throttle Jessica when I see her on Friday because, for the third time in a row, she weaseled out of partaking in the lifting/carrying/driving/dropping off portion of the program. Grr. Argh.

We have gotten rid of so many books and we still have so many, it's ridiculous; though it does make me feel better that both rooms do look substantially improved. If nothing else I can cross this first part of the eliminate/give away program off of my to-do list. :)

Today is Tuesday and I leave on Friday for Baltimore where I will briefly visit with Jessica and then head on to New York. I am already tired and am dreading doing the rest of my laundry, cleaning, packing, going to the mother f***ing library (again!) etc. (I have been to the library twice now and I am still finding books which were due two days ago. grr. At least this time I know my fine is warranted.)

Speaking of fines though, I have a book which apparently must be returned immediately (though I technically am allowed to keep it until May) at the school library, so though I do not necessarily *want* to return to NY, I know it is in my best interests to do so. lol.

Christmas break has been good overall, it's hard to believe that it's January 2010. I of course have a list of various resolutions and things I want to work on, but I feel a little bit like I'm pushing against gravity.

I want to be a minimalist but I'm not. No matter how much stuff I get rid of there is always more; the upstairs kitchen is currently filled with such stuff - cooking equipment, a mini refrigerator, old keepsakes, scrapbooks and more. None of this is stuff I necessarily want to get rid of, but at the same time I feel sometimes as though everything is weighing me down...All this *stuff*. As I was carrying box after box to the car today and then, climbing up the stairs over and over, I decided that I will try to accept that I am not a minimalist and to embrace the things I want to have while getting rid of things that are not absolutely necessary to my happiness and well being.

Nonetheless I refuse to buy books like I use to, or if I do buy a book, I usually sell it right away. I don't know why Jessica and I thought it would be a grand idea to compile our own library, but in retrospect I wish that instead of filling the room to bursting we had just checked out more books at the library. :p
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From this day forth I give advice to no one ever. Mmmm...kay? Good.

Elizabeth's great uncle died yesterday, so I've been running around doing things for her i.e. packing up her clothes and homework, emailing her prof, fetching phone numbers for her etc. She is staying with her great aunt while she calls to get his body released from the hospital and cremated but she should be home today.

I talked to Audra about the email and things are good between us for the most part.

I'm slightly frustrated in general about relationships with people right now though. It seems like there are sparks flying through the air and hitting people. One minute I'm sitting quietly or taking the garbage out and the next minute *bam* I'm blindsided by someone being petty or unexpectedly peevish. Today in the ongoing garbage saga Eva commented that I was taking it out a lot and was that really necessary. In part the garbage was from me cleaning out my cabinet in which an orange had escaped and rolled into the back of the cabinet and quietly moldered. Now, half orange colored and half green colored, I had plucked it from the cabinet and very carefully stuck it into a bag to take down. I also snuck Oust into the cabinet because I don't want to be accused of being a dirty rotten food hoarder aider and abetter. The orange was so smelly that I took it down almost immediately not swiftly enough to avoid Eva's sly comment though.

Then Kim and I got in a fight about Madoff; I guess it's hard when all your rich neighbors and friends are losing money. boohoo. Sometimes I think I'm not friendly enough with Kim and Eva and then we have conversations where Kim says that the recession was caused by Madoff. I don't know, like I said little sparks are flying through the air. 

On the plus side I bought Thanksgiving stamps. So yay. Woo hoo. \

The header i.e. quote is from Whoopi Goldberg.
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Dear Dudes and Dudettes,

I have been asked at least once a day by at least one person a day, when I'll be done with school. Lay off please. You're beginning to give me a complex and that's the last thing I need right now. :p

Okay I need to get some work done.
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I've been spending a lot of time working on schoolwork and trying to get things done. Though yesterday I took the day off sort of, I was so irritated and tired and worn out that after my doctor's appointment I went out for lunch with Z. We got lunch at the Mexican place and then we went to the Bronx neighborhood library. I picked up a couple of mysteries that seem good so far, and I bought a couple of books for a few dollars which was super sweet. :D

As far as things go in general....I just want to tell all the people around me: Give yourself a break! Be nice to yourself! When I was in high school I was miserable and I looked forward to life outside of high school. I thought grown ups were happier because they had more freedom and independence, but everywhere I look people are, like totally acting like they're still trapped in high school.

Please....try to gain a little perspective. If you can forgive someone or forget something and move on, do so! Don't ascribe negative intentions to people; maybe E forget to take out the garbage. Why do you have to assume that she maliciously didn't take it out just to piss you off? 

Let's try a thought exercise: 

Imagine you are ten/twenty/thirty years older - wiser, smarter, even more fabulously beautiful, and happy. Now, from the perspective of this wiser you, look at your life. What would your older self think about your life? What would older you change? Look at the big things...and the little things. It's kind of scary I know but in the context of this exercise, try to forgive yourself your faults. Don't use this as an opportunity to beat yourself up, instead look as it solely as an opportunity to make things better than they are...

Trivial thoughts of the day: Why do people torture themselves? I know I do it all the time, but I'm working on it. Are you torturing yourself? Why????? Only you have the power to torture yourself. When someone else makes you unhappy or a situation makes you unhappy please know that *you* and only you allow others or a situation to make you unhappy.
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This morning has been slow and snotty, but I have some good news.

First of all, my roommate Z  called early this morning to tell me that she went ahead and bought our "This Is It" tickets for Nov. which is unexpected but nice.

Also, in the continuing saga of my loan and Fin Aid situation, I have been waiting on my refund check for about two weeks now. The last time I spoke with the financial aid loan officer she told me that after the loan was approved, the refund check would be automatically mailed to me, and I wouldn't have to worry about contacting them and that it would only take about a week. That was about three weeks ago. So yesterday after I hiked to campus for nothing, I decided that I would call them today.

I called, and a very competent individual answered the phone, listened to my request, put me on hold, and then told me that for some reason the money had just been sitting in my account for the last three weeks but that she had put a rush order on it, and they would be mailing it to my p.o. box. So yay! I will have money. Sadly it will not arrive until Monday or Tuesday next week, however, I should get the money in time to pay all my bills etc. :D

Booyah! Oh and if you are lusting after my icon, the fabulous [livejournal.com profile] libgirl made it for me. :)


Oct. 13th, 2009 09:37 pm
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I woke up today and my left eye was bloodshot and creepy looking. I believe I burst the blood vessels due to my copious coughing all night long. Bleary eyed and feeling much like I looked I stumbled to the bathroom and was forced to have two separate conversations with my roommates before I was ready to have conversations with anyone.

Z: Oh...wow....you don't look very good.
Me: Grmph
Z: So you're still sick? 
Z: Does this dress make me look fat? 
Me: Nrgh
Z: Will you zip me up? 
Me: Yrng
Z: Do you like this bra? 
Me: Yrng.

Followed by: 
K: Hi! How are yo....oh. Are you sick? Do we have a little cough? *at this point I hacked out my lung

After this auspicious start to my day, I showered, dressed and entered the kitchen at which point my new toaster declared war on me.

The toaster, who I had proudly named Fred the day before, had decided that he would no longer eject the toast but instead would keep it low inside his belly all the better for me to electrocute, and or burn myself for his amusement.

Though at first I attempted to understand the manual, which when unfolded resembles the map of the universe only written in spanish, I eventually gave up. Irritated, and shivering, because the air conditioning continues to blast forth, I unplugged the toaster and begin viciously stabbing at his inwards with my finger, and successfully managed to fix Fred only after emptying the crumb tray and banging the toaster, not per the instruction manual, on the side of the counter. 

Satisfied I returned to my bedroom to enjoy a music video of a pregnant man singing while I drank my hot tea and english muffin, however I inadvertently spilled nearly the entire cup of tea down my leg. While I was mopping up the tea and calling the burn unit, sadly, my english muffin grew cold.

Fortunately I received an uplifting telephone call and my day began to turn for the better after this point.

This evening I baked cornbread and funtastic brownies. They were yummy. On an interesting side note, my roommates and I are reliving the best moments of the Golden Girls.

Me: I'm just going to have one brownie because I'm not really hungry.
Z: Oh, let me have some more!
K: Yeah I could eat another.
Z: Oh, now we need tea and napkins.
K: That was delicious, I'm not going to be able to fit into these pants for much longer.
Z: Oh stop it.
K: No seriously, I've already gained twenty pounds in two months.
Z: Whatever. You know, we had some delicious carrot cake the other night.
K: Really?
Z: Oh yes.
Me: We still have nearly the entire cake, you want some? 
K: Oh no, I shouldn't. Well let me look at it? 
Me: Okay.
K: Oh get me a plate and a knife!

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So I know some of you i.e. Jessica are unable to download and install programs on the computers they use for work. However, there are tons of nifty programs that you can install on your flash drive which can then travel with you...

I strongly encourage you to check out this list:


Additionally here is another list: http://www.loosewireblog.com/2005/03/a_directory_of_.html

If you are too lazy to click on the link here is a brief list of some of the programs:
Categories with links )

Additionally, my favorite site (lifehacker.com :p) has a handy list of great apps:


Particularly interesting for those of you who have faced the wrath of US3 system, in this article lifehacker recommends an app which will remove the dreaded US3 from your USB stick:


Now that you've sampled all of the goods find a computer that will let you install programs and download these bad boys. After that point you should be able to just open it and go, convenient yes?


Sep. 28th, 2009 07:37 pm
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So I recommended the Zune software awhile ago...well they updated recently and if you haven't already installed the new updates you should! There are all sorts of new features and I do believe it may even be faster than it used to be.

Here's the link to the main download site: http://www.zune.net/en-us/products/software/download/

If you already have the software installed then you'll just want to go into settings, click on the general tab and then scroll down to software, and click on the button that says check for updates.


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You cannot depend on your eyes when your imagination is out of focus.

--Mark Twain--

 Hey. What's something good that's happened to you today? 

I had a nice lunch with my roommate Elizabeth today. I also came up with a good idea for a paper. Sweeeeet... :D

So It's a cliche but life is short, so I'm trying to enjoy everyday, worry less about the future, and leave the past...in the past.

I've heard numerous times that you have as much drama in your life as you allow to be there, and I have found that for the most part it's true. Drama exists on its own, but how I react to things determines how much drama exists specifically for me. 

I have a picture of beach chairs in white sand, blue skies and ocean on my desktop. I don't know if I will ever make it to the beach but I hope so, and the picture makes me feel good. It is something to aspire to. Oddly, somehow this picture has reminded me how much I like to write. It's nice to have goals and something to look forward to.

I hope you are having a pleasant Sunday or will have a great Monday.  

                         Did you know-----------------Smokey the Bear has his own zip code! It's 20252. He was issued it in 1964.

"The time to repair the roof is when the sun is shining" ~John F. Kennedy (and when the squirrels are out hunting for nuts).


Sep. 23rd, 2009 05:03 pm
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I need a mental vacation from my brain. I mean, it's been real and it's been great, and it's been really great but I think the time has come to say goodbye but not really goodbye, just goodbye. (get the reference? :p).

I'm just driving myself crazy worrying about money and being a good person, and whether I do enough etc. So if I could just turn off the little voices in my head that are constantly narrating and judging and deciding to make me stressed and tense, and irritable, which fumble and bump into my parietal lobe and smash into my frontal lobe repeatedly until I get a headache, and are always slipping tired pills into my bloodstream, I would be oh so pleased.

In other news, they came and installed the cable today so that's good. It looks like it might rain too, which will make me cheerful.


Sep. 11th, 2009 05:37 pm
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So I've been doing yoga now for two days. They say (I believe) that if you do something for four days in a row it establishes a habit, an easily broken habit but a habit nonetheless. So here's hoping I'll make it through four days! :p

So I spent time doing yoga, showered and am now sitting here all clean and good smelling. :D The funny thing about yoga so far is that a lot of the exercises that my physiotherapist told me I should do everyday to alleviate my back and leg pain (and which I never do) are the exercises I'm doing now. Who would have figured. :p
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It's September now, I can't believe it! Wow, it's been a busy week. Time flies when you're having fun though. I arrived back in NY on Wednesday night, just in time to meet with my adviser Thursday morning. Then Jess and I spent the next three days running around, wearing ourselves out, and having a lot of fun (at least I think so, stay tuned to her journal for more deets  ;P ). I'm glad she came, I always seem to do more things when someone is visiting, that I would never do on my own because of lack of motivation. lol. 

Today she left to go home and I spent some time with my roommate Elizabeth. She is very nice, and funny. She's from Scotland, and is finding NY fascinating. It's strange to be the person who *knows* things. lol. I am grateful looking back, that I moved in originally with a group of girls who knew their way around the city - it made for a far less (potentially) stressful experience.

I moved all of my bowls, pans, silverware, cups etc. into the kitchen today and we now appear to have most of the items we'll need to cook. Elizabeth bought some small pots which is good too.

That's most of the things going on with me. I'm sorry that Jess had to hear me talk obsessively about how anxious I was regarding the roommate situation prior to our roommate meeting, but I'm grateful too that she was here, because she has a tendency to ground me and dispel some of my paranoid fears about potential horrible futures. lol.

Anyway, I hope you all have a busy/relaxing/peaceful/loud Labor Day tomorrow (pick whichever adejectives apply ;P). Good night!


Sep. 1st, 2009 11:31 am
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On the eve of my departure for New York, I am struggling to deal with all of the unhappy feelings I always have when I head back. This is coupled with irritation regarding emails I keep getting from my new roommates complaining about things, telling me which things they have thrown away and informing me that they want to pay more for internet.

But I am trying to keep my cool and not turn into a skunk which flattens everyone around me because of my own fear and irritation. I refuse to ruin my last day at home because I don't want to leave and I'll deal with my new roommates when I get there. My sister is going to be staying for a few days and they may have a problem with that, but I hope they don't. If they do, I'll pay for her to stay in a hotel. I do not plan to be in the apartment very much so I hope that I won't have to deal with very many problems regarding the apartment. As far as internet goes, I intend to spend the majority of my time at the library so maybe I'll just tell them I don't want to pay for it anymore. I don't know. I can feel myself gearing up to be unhappy and unfriendly, I'm trying not to be but I am having a really hard time dealing with the fact that three people (apparently the fourth roommate is not moving in) have settled into the place where I live, and when I come back, they will be waiting for me... I receive no less than an email a day from them complaining about x, y, and z. Today one of the roommates informed me that she threw away my bath mat and shower curtain because she thought they were too dirty...I am a fastidious person and they were perfectly clean when I left.

Anyway I am going to try to think of things that make me happy to cheer me up...my family, my friends, my pets, my comics, having a place to live and a place to come home to, having some money in the bank, being able to spend some time with my mom, dad, and deidre today, soon to be clean clothes, my bed, my favorite pillow (which I left in NY and will soon see again), my teddybear (also in NY), my camera, my clothes, my computer, the internet, my phone, my favorite tv shows, books, feel good words, music! Oh music, lol (super excited about the new paramore, and the used), all of my birthday presents, my cake, tiberio's pizza, cabbage, my batman wallet, headphones I like, washing machines in the house, my ability to choose who I spend time with, the library, patience, sunshine, trees, and flowers.

Whooo...I'm determined to have a great day today and I hope anyone that read all of the above, has a great day as well.
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