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Jul. 21st, 2004 09:37 pmNext week is my last week at work, but I don't know if I'll make it that long...With the festival and everything I am working a minimum of 8 hours a day, which doesn't sound like a lot but to me (who originally signed up for 15-20 hours a week) it is...different.
One good thing about working so much is that I don't have a lot of time to worry about the numerous things bothering me. I hope I can sleep tonight, b/c I have a lot to do tomorrow and I haven't been sleeping well.
I am just worried about many things, and extremely upset about my friendship with Elaine. The short story- I just discovered that Elaine shared something very personal with Minh in Feb. and didn't tell me until Sunday. I feel betrayed, and worthless. I don't understand why she wouldn't tell me, but I can't talk to her about it b/c she responds to confrontations in very strange ways.
Minh keeps trying to get the seven of us (Terry, Elaine, Minh, Me, Juan, Nick and Jordan) together to go up to Hocking Hills for a picnic, but so far that plan sucks. I am worried that our failure to get together is an omen for the future- for the way things will be. Minh called today to see if I could get together tomorrow, but I can't I have to work which sucks b/c everyone else can get together. I told her to go ahead and organize something for tomorrow, b/c otherwise I don't think that we will see each other at all. But I don't really want her to-I want to be there. I know I'm being a baby but whatever...We might do something Sunday I guess, but I am already tired and I don't know if I'll feel up to doing something four days from now.
The festival starts tomorrow so I'll be working my arse off for the next two weeks. Good news: if I want a job come fall break etc. I have one! Woohoo! I'm going to go eat and then hopefully crawl into bed and surrender to blissful dreams.
One good thing about working so much is that I don't have a lot of time to worry about the numerous things bothering me. I hope I can sleep tonight, b/c I have a lot to do tomorrow and I haven't been sleeping well.
I am just worried about many things, and extremely upset about my friendship with Elaine. The short story- I just discovered that Elaine shared something very personal with Minh in Feb. and didn't tell me until Sunday. I feel betrayed, and worthless. I don't understand why she wouldn't tell me, but I can't talk to her about it b/c she responds to confrontations in very strange ways.
Minh keeps trying to get the seven of us (Terry, Elaine, Minh, Me, Juan, Nick and Jordan) together to go up to Hocking Hills for a picnic, but so far that plan sucks. I am worried that our failure to get together is an omen for the future- for the way things will be. Minh called today to see if I could get together tomorrow, but I can't I have to work which sucks b/c everyone else can get together. I told her to go ahead and organize something for tomorrow, b/c otherwise I don't think that we will see each other at all. But I don't really want her to-I want to be there. I know I'm being a baby but whatever...We might do something Sunday I guess, but I am already tired and I don't know if I'll feel up to doing something four days from now.
The festival starts tomorrow so I'll be working my arse off for the next two weeks. Good news: if I want a job come fall break etc. I have one! Woohoo! I'm going to go eat and then hopefully crawl into bed and surrender to blissful dreams.
