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New Years Resolutions
Dec. 17th, 2006 12:05 amSo I know it's a little early, but what about new years resolutions? Are you making any? Do you ever succeed in carrying them out?
I always make a few...but in the back of my head there is always this little voice that informs me point blank that these resolutions won't last long and so I don't really worry about them all that much except in spare guilt ridden moments.
But this year (of course) is going to be different. I really mean that. Except I'm not waiting until January 1st to carry out my resolutions, I think I shall start this week. That way I'll have a week or so to get used to the idea of things before January walks up and hits me in the head. For I think that's the problem, January seems so shiny and new and I love things that are shiny and new. But it's like the furby I got back in the day, he was only shiny and new for about two months at most, then he was sort of nice to touch but not so interesting that I couldn't put him down for a couple of minutes. So I think if I have some time to prepare, to build up a sort of barrier between himself and shiny newness, that maybe I'll be able to fulfill my resolutions. It's like they say, resolutions don't wait on a day, they start now.
This year I will not be seduced by bright packaging, I go into battle with the clear realization that a new year does not mean much at all. Things are not suddenly miraculously better. A calendar does not make things different. But thoughts do make things different, and if I can make resolutions now and start to live with the consequences of those resolutions, maybe I will be able to fulfill them. Maybe I won't be deceived by the glitzy glamor of clean notebooks with crisp empty pages. Maybe I can take an older notebook that is a little worn because its been battered and beaten down, shoved into the bottom of bookbags, and write my resolutions in it. Because I think that's sort of how you have to handle resolutions, you have to wrestle them into a manageable size, tug and pull on them until they fit you and fit your life, and then sort of wait for the right moment to shove them into place. You have to create your resolutions to be tough and lasting, flexible but firm, born out of determination and desire for things to be different; they can't be pretty little things that will bend and bow at the first onslaught of mental manipulation and seduction and a desire for things to be easy.
Yes, well, I encourage you all to make new years resolutions that will last and really follow through with them.
I always make a few...but in the back of my head there is always this little voice that informs me point blank that these resolutions won't last long and so I don't really worry about them all that much except in spare guilt ridden moments.
But this year (of course) is going to be different. I really mean that. Except I'm not waiting until January 1st to carry out my resolutions, I think I shall start this week. That way I'll have a week or so to get used to the idea of things before January walks up and hits me in the head. For I think that's the problem, January seems so shiny and new and I love things that are shiny and new. But it's like the furby I got back in the day, he was only shiny and new for about two months at most, then he was sort of nice to touch but not so interesting that I couldn't put him down for a couple of minutes. So I think if I have some time to prepare, to build up a sort of barrier between himself and shiny newness, that maybe I'll be able to fulfill my resolutions. It's like they say, resolutions don't wait on a day, they start now.
This year I will not be seduced by bright packaging, I go into battle with the clear realization that a new year does not mean much at all. Things are not suddenly miraculously better. A calendar does not make things different. But thoughts do make things different, and if I can make resolutions now and start to live with the consequences of those resolutions, maybe I will be able to fulfill them. Maybe I won't be deceived by the glitzy glamor of clean notebooks with crisp empty pages. Maybe I can take an older notebook that is a little worn because its been battered and beaten down, shoved into the bottom of bookbags, and write my resolutions in it. Because I think that's sort of how you have to handle resolutions, you have to wrestle them into a manageable size, tug and pull on them until they fit you and fit your life, and then sort of wait for the right moment to shove them into place. You have to create your resolutions to be tough and lasting, flexible but firm, born out of determination and desire for things to be different; they can't be pretty little things that will bend and bow at the first onslaught of mental manipulation and seduction and a desire for things to be easy.
Yes, well, I encourage you all to make new years resolutions that will last and really follow through with them.
